Chasing Dreams

I have always believe in chasing my dreams and being a person who is very ambitious, I have set a long list of things that I want in my life. At times I feel people only think that I only chase one thing in life which is to be successful in my career/making loads of money and thats it without thinking of other aspects in life. The truth is, it is not something that I don't care about but rather it is something that I am very fixed with about what I want in life. Never in one day that I never think about my future and I know whatever I am doing is after a very thorough thought and it is not about being selfish. If ever I am selfish I would just stay here and not think about anyone else.

I am different in my thinking and I always wish that people can understand but its not something you can exactly say bluntly because people have expectations in everything that you do. It hurts sometime to feel like you cannot live up to what other people want and its unfair because I am completely happy with myself. I grew up in an environment where I believe that I should be able to take on to my decisions and have my own opinion and it does not mean if I don't do something that they want it means I love them less or not care about how they feel. Whatever happens to my feelings and my own happiness?

It is my life, my choice... If only you could hear my words and my voice deep down in my heart. If ever I regret, I will live through it and please do not worry because I know I won't and it will not make less of a good person for not fulfilling that one aspect. I believe there are many ways to achieve happiness/success and it is the words of others that puts pressure to it. I am very depressed at the moment and I feel that I don't make any of you happy.

I'm sorry I am not the best but I always try to be and I love you with all my heart.

P.S:

"My heroes are my parents. I can't see having anyone else as my heroes."