little brother

Honestly, I have always wanted a younger brother...No offense to my little baby sister, I still love you no matter what...The call from my parents yesterday was a definite shock to me, not in a bad way though...Dad told us that they might be adopting a 3 year old boy and I must say that I am actually quite happy with the idea even though there are many things that are running in my mind right now...

I can't imagine having another brother at the age of 26 that is like 23 years younger than me...I have always wanted to adopt a child of my own as I cannot bear looking at kids not getting the love that they deserve...Growing up in a family filled with love I do feel that this little boy deserve the love that my parents has given to all of us...Not only from parents but from my two amazing aunties that would definitely be his aunt later...I don't have any objection over this even though I know many years down the road this boy will be the siblings responsibility...

Dad and mum, I know you will be able to provide the love for this boy and I know he will be as brilliant as us four...I want him to speak well, have confidence and make all of us proud one day...I know its not confirmed yet but if we do get to take care of him that would be what I hope it will be...One thing I am just afraid is that we might all spoil him since he will be the centre of attention...Don't blame us ok, we all love kids just like the both of you...

So little boy whom I don't even know your name yet, please give us all the happiness and we will give you an experience of what a family is...We'll teach you, guide you and make sure you grow up to be a fine young man and of course we will give you love and that was what my folks taught me...

Dad and mum, this is a big decision in our family and I hope if it happens this little boy will be your teman... I know the both of you long for this and I am sure you miss those times when we were still little...No matter what all of us for are still your babies ok...Teach him what you taught us and I know and I believe he will be just fine...

This is truly unexpected but selected...Children are the gift from the above...

P.S: Ma, make sure he can speak well ok, Mrs.Voon tak tau mana dah so you need to be the Mrs.Voon and maybe he will learn my infamous poetry taught by her:-

I'm a lean dog, a keen dog, a wild dog, and lone;
I'm a rough dog, a tough dog, hunting on my own;
I'm a bad dog, a mad dog, teasing silly sheep;
I love to sit and bay the moon, to keep fat souls from sleep.

Daddy u make sure he is very positive...Give him the military training like you did to us...hahahaha....

"Its better to have a loving family than to have no family at all"

the bus ride

I went to college today to send my equipment back and I must say this Video Production assignment is the toughest...Not in terms of shots or my storyline...Its worse than that...I have never felt this tired carrying everything by myself...I wonder why this is not a group project...I had to carry the camera, tripod and a matte box and my college bag...Dugaan dia Allah S.W.T sahaja la yang tau....The weather is one thing, I had to take a bus and the tram...and of course it was the same thing when I picked it up...And worse of all, my contributor couldn't make it and wants me to arrange for next week...Thank god my name has given me the sifat 'bersyukur' and not to dwell over things like this...

So with my heavy loads I entered the bus, and was greeted by two old ladies asking me if I was from a TV station...Of course not, I'm a Visual Media student working on a college project...She offered me her seat, but of course I refused...I told her that she deserved the seat even though I really needed to seat after walking for 10 minutes...Then the ladies went down after a few stop and I got myself a seat at the handicapped and baby tramp area...While seating I made sure that no one brought a baby in because I will have to carry everything else where...Few stops later, came a man with his baby...I stood up immediately and shifted all my things...Masyallah, beratnya barang2 nie...Well the seat is prioritized that way kan but I managed to get a seat as well...

The man said thanks very much and told me that I could put the things behind his baby's tramp...Suddenly an old lady said something to the both of us which I think is very brilliant..."Both of you are very kind people, trying to help each other...You must always have kindness in your heart as it will bring you a long way, when I was a child that was what my folks taught me...Show kindness and your kids will follow after you and it will go on until you die and when you are kind people will treat you with kindness." I smiled at her and said thanks for the wonderful advice....

I went off the bus and carried my heavy loads, and guess what....Some kind person offered to help me carry my things to the college...Isn't it just so ironic when you just got an advice, it happened all over sudden...Allahamdulliah...Subhanallah...

'Treat everyone with politeness, even those who are rude to you - not because they are nice, but because you are'

-Author Unknown-

chocolate muffin

I must say that working here in Ireland has given me so much wonderful experience...So memorable which is such a waste not to be shared to others...I didn't know that my job was more than making a sandwich or hot beverages, it offered me a different sight towards life and its wonders...

God will always know what is best for you and I believe that I got this job here as part of what God knows best about me...I know that my entries are so much related to the older gens, well I can't help it since they are the one's who loves talking and sharing so many things with me...I am a strong believer that stories from the older gen's are so pure and full of advice sometimes direct and sometimes in direct...Its how you look at it...

Actually, I owe this entry for a long time as this occurred during Christmas...I promise I will write this short as I would not want to bore anyone with my lengthy style of writing...As usual, my work will always start in the kitchen and of course, it is my responsibility to get all the plates on the table back to the kitchen...While doing so, a lady called me to the table and asked me to get her a pot of tea...Well, orang tua kat sini memang suka minum teh...Of course, I went and get her the pot of tea as she said she was to tired to queue up...I told her the amount, and you know I had to wait for such a long time to wait for it...You know why? She kept the coins in a handkerchief. She doesn't have much and you could see a vision of her background when you look at her but her smile was something...

That is not the main thing that I want to share, what she said to me was golden when I asked her have she prepared herself for Christmas...'Well, my love Christmas is nothing to me, I am by myself, perhaps for youngster like you would enjoy it cause who knows tomorrow I'll be gone." I politely say that she should not say that and I went off...As I left the table, I had a feeling of sadness, it was so strong that I wanted to cry... I don't know why I felt that way, I kept looking outside and looked at her sipping her tea while rubbing her chest...

What she said keeps playing in my mind as if she is going tomorrow...I slide my hands in my pocket and looked at the tips I received from some wonderful old ladies and gents... I had 5 euros in total and without hesitation, I went straight to the server and packed a muffin for her...I told myself that I can always get this tip anytime but maybe this muffin would make her day...

'Here's a muffin on me, please take it,' I said...She looked worried and asked if she had to pay for it...I chuckled and say 'No, it's on me.' You should see how happy she was as she immediately took the muffin and put it in her stroller...' Thank you my child, God will always bless you and I know he will.' Honestly, it was not about the blessing it was what I felt that was right to do...Who knows that the muffin might be the last she ever had...I walked away and as I turned around, she wasn't there anymore...I felt a bit weird there but of course I am happy to make someone's day just by chocolate muffin...

Today, give a stranger one of your smiles. It might be the only sunshine he sees all day.

-Quoted in P.S. I Love You, compiled by H. Jackson Brown, Jr.-

the lady in a green jacket

Well this is of course not a title of song like 'Lady In Red', this entry is about an old lady who comes frequently to my workplace...Dear Lady In Green, I don't know your name but you sure made me feel that you have so many stories with the jacket you wear everyday. I always believe that people tend to hold to things that they love the most, it may be the weirdest thing like a sweet wrapper or anything that you can relate to yourself when you look at it...

I often meet this particular lady, from the lines on her face I am sure she is about 70ish...Well that does not matter actually, what interest me is the jacket she wears all the time. A green washed jacket which looked like years back...The first time I notice this lady was during my 1st day at work which was before Christmas, despite the worn out jacket she always had a smile on her face. A very friendly lady indeed whom would always ask for a latte in a small cup. She would always ask me for a newspaper to read and would come around 6.00pm when I am about to close the shop. I notice one thing, she still wears the same jacket since Christmas...Is it her favourite? Honestly, I don't think so...I remembered the other day while I was wiping the tables preparing to close the cafe, she called me to the table and said "My dear, come here I want to show you something." Without hesitation I went up to her and she showed me a doll and told me that she wants to give it to her grandchild...

The doll wasn't anything nice, but she liked it so much and insisted me to like it...Of course, I said it is to make her feel happy. The way she talks about the gift was as if it was the most beautiful and most expensive gift she ever given to her grandchild. While I was talking to her, I can't help looking at the jacket she's wearing it says so much about her just by looking at it...Where is your children? Did they not think of buying you a new jacket during Christmas? So today, I asked my sister if she has and extra jacket that she wants to give away and of course I have a very nice sister who would definitely donate a jacket to this lady....I hope she will like it when I give it to her next week...

P/S:

Lady, I don't have the money to buy you a jacket but I do hope that my sister's jacket will keep you warm...I don't care if you don't remember me but I will remember you always...

"If you haven't any charity in your heart, you have the worst kind of heart trouble."

-Bob Hope-

Random Feelings

This entry is just my random feelings at the moment, what I am about to write is about my parents...I feel that everyone should write to their parents and let them know how grateful you are to have them...

The thing that triggered me to write this entry was inspired by a tune that my parents love which is 'Yesterday Once More' by The Carpenters. Thanks to the iPod for shuffling the playlist to that particular track during my stroll back home from college...I definitely want that 'yesterday once more' to happen at times to be a better person in life. So here is an open letter to my beloved mum and dad...Mum and dad this is a public blog and I want the world to know how much I love the both of you...

Dear Ibu & Abah (Mummy & Daddy),

Here I am in a place so foreign to me with my sister by side at all times. Syukur Allahmdulliah, Mimi is here with me...I must say that I am more than thankful to have such wonderful parents like the both of you. What both of you taught me is who I am now. When my lecturer praises me or even random people I meet on the street says something nice, I will always say this in my heart 'Allhamdullilah, ibu bapa aku didik aku cukup' and I am always proud of that.

I may not be smart and I may not be the best in everything but the both of you never fail to make me feel that I am smart and good at whatever I am doing at all times. Thank you for always accepting my flaws and my mistakes. Just like daddy always say 'its ok to make mistakes', but of course we need to identify the mistakes and make ourself better.

Mum & Dad, I am here standing on my two feet, you thought me how to talk and walk and of course to also 'walk the talk'...You never gave up on any of us...At the back of my mind, I always remember that you are always at our back...Mum you taught me to be brave and have confidence and Dad you taught me to always think positive...I remember all of the things that you taught us...

I was talking to Mimi the other day and I am surprised that she felt the same way as I do...Sometimes I feel that whatever I get in my life is not so much because of my prayers to god, it is your prayers that he answered to give us a good life...Of course we do pray and ask for what we want and need in life but I am always sure that you both are the one's who constantly pray for us to get what we wanted and need....

Sometimes I feel really tired working and studying at the same time...But I always hold this thing in my mind...You worked for us, came home and feed us and taught us about the world and gave us all the love we need...I bet that was more tiring than what I am going through...Mum and the labour pains from her 4 babies and Dad for being the best at work to make ends meet...We are now no longer babies, but I know deep down your hearts we are still those cute little babies...

I am not writing this because I feel lonely here, but I just felt that I should pen it down. Honestly, I'm not...It is just something that I think everyone should always write about their parents from time to time. There are definitely more to write but I will need a lifetime to share the wonders of you both. As for now I'll leave it here as thank you letter for the both you...

Thank you, Mom.

Thank you, Dad.

Three small words.

So much to add.

For all your love

and your support

a million words

would be too short.

The words, "I love you"

seem too few

to express the love

I have for you.

P/S:

So when was the last time you said thank you to your parents?Think about it...

'Children learn to smile from their parents'

-Shinichi Suzuki-